Yup, another Pearl Jam post, this time about my favorite tags. ‘tagging’ is a bit of a PJ tradition for certain songs (namely daughter & betterman). They play the song……then keep going and ‘tag’ the song with another…..
There are some great ones, (betterman/sooner or later is quite good), but hands down the best one of all has to be Daughter/It’s OK.
Debuted in 2000 after PJ returned to the states after the tragedy at Rockslide when it had a particularly poignancy in that it involved crowd participation, they’ve played it here and there since(sadly I’ve never seen it live). Touring Band 2000 has it on the DVD, which is where I fell in love, and I gotta say, it nearly brings me to tears every time. It’s OK is by Dead Moon, a solid little punk band. The lyrics aren’t incredibly deep, but they are incredibly simple, incredibly insightful, and to me, incredibly true.
PJ doesn’t sing the whole song, just the last refrain, pasted here for your enjoyment.
It’s okay, we’ve all seen better days
It’s okay, you don’t have to run and hide away
It’s okay
It’s okay, yeah we love you anyway
This is my chance, this is my life
And my opening hour
This is my choice, this is my voice
There may be no tomorrow
This is my plea, this is my need
This is my time for standing free
This is my step, this is my depth
In a world demanding of me
But it’s okay…….
A film is not done by one person. It’s done by a lot of people. I love this whole collaborative aspect. When it works well, you end up with something better than any of us started out to do.
Spent a good weekend in chicago filming more videos, this time at Navy Pier. Got a little sunburned, SHAME on me. Flew back Monday morning and went into work, then went straight to the gym for a truly ass kicking afternoon chest/triceps session. Nearly passed out in the Sauna, then headed home for a bit before meeting stan for some drinks in the evening.
Had a good hill run this morning, realizing that winter is coming has made it a bit easier to get up and enjoy the warmth. This year is flying by. Starting to get a fairly good outline/vibe of what the next year or so of life is going to like, and must say it feels pretty good to have some direction again. Still working through some of the issues that came up for me a few weeks ago, and while not really enjoyable, it feels good to be letting go of some things.
Our gym is closed this week for their annual week long “deep clean”. As a result, for the 2nd August in a row, Casey and I are doing our morning Sanitas hikes. It’s such a beautiful, gratifying way to start the day that I am deeply enjoying. I’ve always found that I seem to process and be my sharpest cognitively when I’m hiking. Something about hiking specifically, even more so than walking, really puts me into an open space that often leads me to have some truly amazing discussions. This morning’s was particularly great, covering everything from the dangers of ego at the world centric level, karma, eros/agape, the idealism of romantic love, how deepening one’s secondary sexual essence can often deepen your primary one, and how important it is to be open to pain, as that’s often where the most growth occurs. At least that’s what I think we talked about. ;^)
I like this song……..Moby rocks. “open to everything” has been the phrase in my head the last week. I knew it was from a song but couldn’t remember it for the life of me. Feels good to have found it……..and to be feeling it……
In other news my desktop died this morning. Or at least the RAIDed harddrives that were my system drive did…..power fluctuation killed um. Things I know I lost: All my music (though about 70% is now locked onto my ipod….will have to find a way to rip it off), photos of Martin’s Wedding in Germany, Europe Photos I think…….and god knows what else. (i kept waaaaaaay too much shit on my windows desktop)
t’ah well! it’s like i lost shit……..but i don’t even know what……though, ain’t that always the case?
It’s been a while! Some crazy traveling definitely caused my training schedule to go out of whack, but I’m happy to say I had an excellent leg workout yesterday morning, and even though I nearly flaked out, managed to get my ass out of bed this morning to run intervals. Can’t say they were *great*, still challenging as hell really, but feels good to have them done.
These logs will be sporadic at best for the time, but I’ll keep chugging away at them. As my physical self has gotten back into good form, I’m finding a lot more emotional and mental issues letting themselves peak back up. I’m about to start another training program of sorts, definitely of a different kind, but one that I might decide to write a bit about at sometime or another. In the meantime, know that work is being done, life is a little crazy, and I’m still poor as hell. But how could it be any other way, and would I want it to?
I know that it’s easier to portray a world that’s filled with cynicism and anger, where problems are solved with violence. That’s titillating. It’s an easy out. What’s a whole lot tougher is to offer alternatives, to present other ways conflicts can be resolved, and to show that you can have a positive impact on the world. To do that, you have to put yourself out on a limb, take chances, and run the risk of being called a do-gooder.
I started working with Boulder director Josh Shayne on his webcom “Lowered Expectations” in late June and early July. Here’s the first episode I DP’d for him, along with 2 accompanying shorts!
Full Episode 2: (watch Episode 1, which wasn’t shot by me here)
day one was pretty mellow, saw Satellite Party (the 3rd gen Jane’s Addiction), and Daft Punk headlined, most impressive. Celebrate [one more time] mixed with some Cafe Del Mar and later Human Together, fuckin’ sweeeeeeeeet.
Wasn’t too hot, nice and tolerable today, had some kickin’ vegan ice cream and was quickly reminded how many scantily clad beautiful women tend to show up to music festivals.
tomorrow: I’m thinking Sound Tribe Sector 9, Regina Spektor, Snow Patrol, Spoon, and Muse.
Sunday: Amy Winehouse, Iggy & The Stooges, then though I’d like to go see Modest Mouse it’ll be straight over to AT&T for some My Morning Jacket (who i actually kinda dig) in order to get good seats for Pearl Jam, who’s playing Lolla for the first time in over a decade, and will likely be my only chance to see them live this year.
As you may have noticed from my training log, I thrive on structure and scheduling. It works really well for me to have set schedules and whatnot, something I’m trying to figure out in my current underemployed semi freelance lifestyle.
Freelancing is a bit stressful as the work day is never *over*, and its become all to common for me to step up past my bedtime working on projects in hopes that one may alleviate some of my current financial woes.
This is pretty contrasted to my late ‘04, nearly all of ‘05 lifestyle, when I was back living at my dad’s in IL preparing to move to Boulder. My schedule looked like this:
M-F, 9am-1pm, Help Desk at Conant High School
M-TH, 1:15-3:15, strength training and cardio at nearby gym (did this for a year and never got the results I did with Casey)
M-TH, SUN, 4pm-12:30am, Call Center Technical Support for AIU Online.
Friday afternoons I had off, and I ended up making them my Netflix days. It was the end of my week, I’d grab a subway, roll home, and watch 1 or 2 netflix movies and totally relax. It was fucking awesome, because I wasn’t doing side projects and could completely relax during that few hours, and I really looked forward to it each week.
I’ve haven’t been able to allow myself to do that since finding myself unemployed again, and while I technically have more “freetime”, I somehow feel more stressed out than I did all those months I was working 62.5 hours a week.
Gotta find an integration between the two, as neither extreme seems very healthy.