Monday I’m going to start a new training challenge. This one will be 7 weeks/49 days, and again be mostly centered around strength training but will also have some additional components.
I’m considering sobriety for the entire challenge, which will roughly end when some friends visit for the 4th of July weekend, and seemed to work well for me last time.
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in no particular order and mostly off the top of my head.
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a rough outline
consider this a view of the future; a mixture of intentions, desires, goals, and things I’ve already started manifesting.
The Frame: I like life, I really do. I enjoy the hell out of it, and fantastically enough it seems to be getting better with time. When I look ahead to turning 30 in a few years I smile, and when I look ahead to what might be at 40 I really smile, and past that I glow atomically.
i want to make films, lots of them, of all genres and styles. For at least half of the year I want to work intensely on preparing for film projects, lining up all the pieces and locations, working with actors and scripts and being fully engaged in the creative planning process. then I want to spend a month or two shooting, working 12 hour days, pushing myself to the edge, and creating small temporary families with the cast and crew for that project. I want to make movies that make people happy, that show them new perspectives and waken them up to the beauty of this world and all the moments that comprise it. When I’ve attained a moderate degree of success I’d like to give back to the film community and the world. I’d like to recreate a mini studio system that has teachers and students and becomes part of passing the lineage on. I’d also like to create a non-profit that donates equipment and training to communities around the world and teaches them how to tell their own stories.
I want to see the world and travel to every continent. I think travel inherently shifts one’s perspective and is a crucial part of personal growth. I want continue relationships I have with friends in various countries around the world, and make new friends that I haven’t even met yet. Then I want to connect these friends and acquaintances, because when I sit back and imagine where everyone I know will be in a few years it blows me away how much power we’ll all have, and the chances we’ll have to really enact some change in this world.
I want to have a solid practice, one that I live and not just talk about. Strength Training is now part of my life, and always will be. I expect to be getting fitter each year as I grow older, so it’s likely I may very well be in the best shape of my life when I’m 50. And that is pretty exciting. I want to continue consistently meditating on a daily or near daily basis. It’s one that I feel is already leading to benefits and levels of clarity that I might not even realize for years to come. Letting go, dieing, holding on to attachments a little less, how could any practice that leads to such things not be a good thing? I also want to continue working with my coach, Willow, to help deal with the loads of psychological baggage I’ve built up over the years. It’s not always easy, certainly not always fun, but life’s simply to short not to deal with problems. I think I want to start doing some more energetic body work, of what specific variety I’m not yet sure, but I think Tai-Chi, Aikido, Yoga, or Qui Gong would be very good for me and do a lot to round out my physical body practice.
I want to start working with those with developmental disabilities again, maybe adults, maybe kids, I’m not sure. The gifts I was given by those I worked with at the Listen Foundation were simply extraordinary; I was taught so much by those with so little.
I’m pretty sure I want to live in both Colorado and California. Europe would be nice if the opportunity ever presented itself, but if I never get to live outside the US I could be quite happy with my CO/CA combo. I’d like to have a nice small place in mountains right here in boulder, somewhere quiet, beautiful, and that I could really call my own. Complimentary to that I’d like to have something in Northern California, most likely either Santa Cruz or San Francisco. California and Colorado have both been crucial parts in who I’ve become, and I will always love them!
I want to have a beautiful partner that completely embodies the full force of the feminine. Sexy, vibrant, dynamic, emotional, and alive. Sometimes I walk the line of dissociating into the masculine, losing all attachment to the manifest realm and getting forever lost in the emptiness of thought and time in my head. That’s where she comes in: crazy beautiful, completely alive in her body, and so absolutely present in the moment that even just the mere sight of her brings me right back to now, this moment, this body, this world. We’ll connect on a deep level but not be attached, two beings that don’t need each other but whom nonetheless choose each other.
I’m pretty sure I’d like to have kids at some point. I imagine becoming a parent is somewhat akin to an instantaneous ego death. Boom, right then and there ‘I‘ suddenly become a LOT less important. What better way to practice bringing love into the world than having kids? Plus, I just think I’d be a damn good father. Clearly, like any parent I’ll do things that’ll fuck up my child in one way or another, but overall compassion and love are something I’m good at giving, have been told I’m good at giving, and something I’d give to another in the purest of forms as a parent.
I suppose that’s it for now, but I’m pretty stoked. traveling the world, making movies, living in kick ass cities, hanging out with amazing friends, seeing concerts and hiking along with a sexy hot partner doesn’t sound too bad to me. let’s have some fun and do this.
there will be ups and downs, good times and bad times. learning to love the process, living itself, is the key i think. at that point it doesn’t really matter what happens.
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I’m feeling a strong urge not to get another job, which after doing some reading I now realize is a terrible investment of time. With most jobs, you can only make money while working. That’s not very practical!
So, three projects I have already gotten a little traction on, that I hope will be going live by January 31st, 2007:
I’ve got the domain names for them all, and have got a skeleton of the 3rd already up. Woohoo!
Other goals for 2007, which I hope to be held accountable for:
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